Entry 2

If I could change one thing about myself I think I would stop pondering things. I would stop remembering things forever, and ever, and ever, and ever, and ever. I torture my mind with so many past thoughts. I've can't seem to leave it all behind. I think the number one issue with my slight depression is the fact everything good and bad I don't let it go and don't want to I want to justify it and make it all right. But I can't... and I won't.  Thank Jesus he made it all right and continues to make it right.

Entry 1

Perhaps it isn't what I write but what I don't write that will intrigue you the most. For the most part however there is no way to express what isn't said, at least not in words. Sometimes a key of music is the best way to tell a story. Yet it is a story unwritten full of chords and a random dissonance here or there missing perfect unity. Then of course the dreaded key change. I guess F# sounds pretty good for right now. Possibly with a deep, soothing R&B beat. Most interesting of all though is the rhythm of the whole mood. Quickly or Slowly? How can it be though that moments move any quicker than another, maybe I'm just moving slower. Maybe its all just relative to the moment preceding the current moment, or does the present moment define the past moment? In my own experience the past defines why the present has every meaning it does for me now. I slowly have to move from an A minor back to a C major and then maybe move down to a D major to an F# minor and down to a C# minor all in necessity  for the piece in its entirety. Why did I move to sad part of my life? Because I had to deal with mistakes made in the highs of my life. Why did I move to a happy part of my life? Because I had incentive to work out of hard point. It's all perfect sense for balance. Maybe thats the craziest thing Christ has done in my life. The fact there is no longer balance, He overwhelmingly outweighs the past and future parts that seem like they must be moved to is no more. Nothing in the future will ever be the same and everything in the past has no more reason to the progression of the piece. The song has been made new and the key is His own and the harmonies are between the people we see everyday.